I'm sitting here completely devastated and heartbroken.
One of my friends from high school was married 10 days ago and on his honeymoon
due back tomorrow.
Well, there was an accident today.
He's now in intensive care and his beautiful wife didn't make it.
She went home to be with the Lord.
My family's been sitting here for hours trying to make sense of this tragedy.
My heart aches, my stomach is turning and my head is pounding.
How does this happen?
Our friend was on my dad's baseball team all 4 yrs of high school and has since
coached with him for the last few years.
The beautiful couple was closer with my parents than they were with me,
and seeing my dad burst into tears as he broke the news to his baseball players was
This couple was so special to them.
My parents were ecstatic after coming home from their wedding,
just 10 days ago.
They were so in love.
I've been in constant prayer tonight and begging for answers.
Nobody deserves this.
Especially not him.
I'm so heartbroken.
He is supposed to be with his bride 10 days after their wedding.
Not sitting in a hospital bed, worlds apart.
Mr and I have been talking all night, putting ourselves in the situation
and it makes us absolutely sick.
There's no words.
Please, please lift up our friend in prayer.
He needs it and through God's power he can feel peace in this tragedy.
He's alone in a foreign country with out his new bride.
The power of prayer has to reach him.
I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.
I won't specify where the thoughts for this post came from, but I'm just throwing my two sense out. It makes my heart ache when people don't treasure a marriage. Marriage was designed and created by our Father in Heaven, representing Christ's love for the church. The distorted view that many people have of this sacred union is really scary to me. It's tossed around like a recreational activity which lends to the polluted view of marriage that many people have today. If only I could talk with a handful of people and catch a glimpse of where these views start and why the treasure of being husband and wife has turned so fowl to some. It might lend to answer the questions I have for them.
edit: This isn't to say I think marriage is easy, or that Mr and I live in a world full of fairy-tales and rainbows. Nor am I blind to the many circumstances where women/men should protect themselves and their children from certain happenings in a marriage, by leaving. This post just stemmed from conversations lately and personal experience. Please know I would never be so naive to think that marriage isn't a two-way road. I also mentioned how I'd love to talk with people that have negative views toward marriage in general to hear their story/understand their reasons. As I stated in the beginning..it's just my two cents, thrown out in my personal blog ;)
Some inspiration from a daily read, Jesus Calling, Mr and I have been reading together:
Through spending time in MyPresence, you gain glimpses of My overflowing vastness. These glimpses are tiny foretastes of what you will experience eternally in heaven.
Let My Love envelop your outreach to other people take time to rest in the Love-Light of My Presence.
Ask My Spirit to quiet your mind so that you can think My thoughts.
Buy it, read it and be blessed like I have. Jesus is so fulfilling and overwhelming in the ways He speaks to me. The temptation to go about my day with out acknowledging my Heavenly Father is easy and never intended. But I'm often reminded to stop and just let God.
So for now, I'll continue back to what I was supposed to be doing. However, I don't suppose He minds when we break from our mundane tasks to reflect on His love and purposes for our life.
I haven't been updating much here lately because
I'm in this weird funk.
I don't know where else to get my thoughts out though
because sometimes journaling isn't enough.
It's so hard to keep positive lately.
This wall just keeps coming up.
I try and shake it off and remind myself R&R is on the way.
But so much has to happen before then
and it feels so far out of reach.
I just wish I had one friend who lived close to me
going through a deployment.
I've been sick for about 4 days now with an
enormous ulcer in my throat.
Nice and graphic for you, you're welcome.
Well it's painful and
I'm over it.
If I have to drink another meal I might
drink another meal because
that's my only choice.
I haven't been able to talk with Mr much lately because
Iraq hates Skype and the internet in general.
That's the conclusion I've come to.
Summer school started and I had to miss two days
due to this awesome ulcer. which in reality is like missing 6 days because
each class is 3.5 hours long.
awesome, amazing and stupendously wonderful.
My posts have been choppy and awkward lately
and I'm attributing it to this funky mcfunkster that I'm in.
Do bear with me and pray for me.
Deployment's are no slice of yellow cake with chocolate frosting.
On a completely unrelated note
my couch smells like skunk and
there's no telling why.
Last summer Mr was going through AIT out in Virginia
and I moved there for the summer to be with him
since he would be deploying shortly there after.
Well it just so happened that Mr's battle from basic had AIT
at the same place and he also had a girlfriend.
She lived in NC and wanted to move out to VA for the summer just like me.
It all worked out perfectly and
we were able to be each others first roomies.
We had agreed to live together, having never met until their
Basic Graduation Day.
She quickly became one of my closest friends.
I'm so thankful to have met her and have found myself a friend for life.
I moved there exactly a year ago, this week.
We have some amazing memories from last summer but it was
definitely a hard one, I'll go more into that another time.
But, my focus is recognizing two of our
friends from last summer that are deploying to Afghanistan
today Mr met one of them in AIT and the other was his battle.
These boys, along with a few others, became amazing friends to Mr and I
we have some great memories because of them.
The hard part about this Army life is you make great friends
but then get separated due to orders and deployments.
But along the way we've met some fantastic, wonderful, lifelong friends.
So I wouldn't trade it for anything.
Totheboys: You are both very special friends to Mr. You made our
stay in VA a memorable and fun one.
I miss you both and hope we can all see each other again someday.
Thank you for serving and come home safe!
When I was a wee little gal
I used to beg my parents to let me open one gift early.
If you remember correctly,
brother and I are exactly 7 days (and a few yrs) apart.
So when his birthday rolled around each year,
naturally I too was ready for gifts.
I was usually given one small gift to hold me over
for 7 more days.
What a greedy little girl I was..
who else got presents on their SIBLING'S birthday?
This year I opened a present from the parental units on
my brother's birthday..like usual
which has resulted in a
present-less day of my birth.
Maybe I should learn some patience.
I guess some things never change.
Have a fabulous Wednesday and don't you forget
that every first of June is my birthday and in honor of my birthday
you should celebrate because life is good..so go have fun for me
because we'd be having all sorts of good fun
if we were together!
P.S. I could really care less about presents at my old age now
(unless your name is Mr and you're buying me a new camera lens ;))
..so please don't take me too seriously above